1 year on hrt: happy TDOV!
3/31/26, 9:09p
sort of a shorter blog post, but happy TDOV! 1 year ago today, i started testosterone. it has been incredible, it has fixed a lot of health problems for me, i have a pretty in depth t journal, and i am going to reflect a bit on HRT since then.
my voice dropped from a mezzano-alto to an alto-baritone, which made me unbelievably happy. my voice is still deepening and gaining depth and rasp. it makes me incredibly happy to laugh or do stupid bits and just generally not have an incredibly high pitched voice. i have a "gay accent" when i want to. i had dreamed of this and it genuinely makes me overwhelmingly happy every day when i get to chatter with customers or my friends.
i have a shitty goatee going! i didnt think id get as much bottom growth or beard hair in my first year as i ended up, which has made me very pleasantly surprised. i love my shitty patchy facial hair i have to shave weekly. i used to reflect as a teenager about having to keep facial hair neatly trimmed. it really is a stupid gender euphoria im delighted to have.
my frame fits mens mediums properly, now, which has been... shockingly euphoric and made me much, much more confident in styling and dressing. i wasnt aware how dysphoric oversized clothes were on me until i was able to fit mens mediums properly. in general, having a deceptively muscular build for my height has also been shockingly affirming and euphoric. if only i hadnt lost all my luck in the height department, lmfao
i think the generalized confidence and calmness hrt has given me has done wonders for both my passing disposition and general mental health. on a whole, a lot of my emotional issues have become much more manageable - i dont cry very often, i properly can express frustration without shutting down, my anger issues are more manageable (well, as so far as they can be in a shitty living situation), im more outgoing and confident since i dont constantly have vocal dysphoria, etc. ive discovered im an extrovert now that i dont have severe vocal dysphoria! its wild!
not sure where im going with this; hrt has improved my life massively, though, and im really happy. i listen to my pre-t voice clip on my site and am genuinely shocked i ever lived like that. ive recently gained the confidence to finally use the mens washrooms and ii didnt realize how dysphoric using the womens made me until it was absent.
happy tdov. if you havent started HRT, go for it. do it DIY like me if you have to! But Do it.
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